My View on the V. Tech status

Do i think that he chickened out by killing himself, yes! Do i feel like my view on this is wondered by many, yes. I think more than normal, thinking of the abnormal, my opinion and thoughts have somehow become interesting and wondered. Friends, family and classmates wonder.. how do i feel or what do i think.
I think it's extremely interesting, sickening and horrific. In my soc. classes last year we studied the common reoccuring themes in these mass murder massacres in schools. it's a disgusting thought i might add. Ok, so he doesnt seem to be a military brat nor on a student Visa, but he is an immigrant. Terrorist attack as we might soon call it. This kid had issues and no one else seemed to care, people barely noticed he was ever around and when he was, he was made fun of, ridiculed for his speech and mocked for never speaking. He kept alot inside of himself and let it out on paper, i think a little bit of bipolar disorder came out when he had repeating phrases.
i think i have also been a victim of getting caught in the thoughts and questioning, but I felt like maybe i could put a peace to things in my own mind. I couldn't say i was affected from something like this much more besides an act from 9th grade. The kid with half-a-bomb in his locker. Thinking back, was that really true or was it a rumor, he did have a hate list of more or so of the popular kids. Only the top 20 though, a year delay of the copy-cat act. 8 years it will be tommorow, 4.20, Columbine 1999. I was in 8th grade. Now, year past how has it bothered me?
We had a scare ony campus today, nothing to bad, i am at peace about it because i have faith in my department. investigations were done very quickly. i dont have faith when p. health people try to tell me that our school is not safe. Let me bring something to you.... the 2006 annual crime report. let's compare to our schools and see what you think.
Graduation is 3.5 weeks away. Imagine if i was going to be done. i wonder, what it would be like. No use wondering i keep telling myself, it doesnt change anything right now.