I'm fellin' skitzophrenic maybe I ain't saved
cause I gotta get high just to block out all the pain
seen death, seen hurt seen a whole lotta thangs
instead of running from it I'm running away from change
it's like I'm outside in the ice cold weather
the rains coming down and I keep getting wetter
I know I'm getting sick and I could die any second
but still I refuse to let your truths make me better
I'd rather eat flies and maggots instead of bread
and its killing me slow but I cant get it through my head
you were stabbed you were murdered and for me is why you bled
but I spit on your bloody face as If I never cared
And Lord how dare I compare my pain
your father turned his back and you were left to hang
I don't know why you did it that I cant explain
how can you love this sinner whose desecrated your name
Lord I deserve the flames
-lecrae
