When God wants you to s l o w down and you don't, he makes you. The last few months have been interesting to say the least. Much has occurred in my heart in the last three months- more than I ever imagined. Some positive and well some not so positive. In the process of trying to answer some of the questions from the last blog, I've realized more of myself, my faith and passion for life. To some questions I've come to conclusions and to others I trust they will be answered through this journey.
This verse has appeared on places, things, walls, random websites quite frequently.
"This is the day the LORD has made. We will rejoice and be glad in it."
This is the year the Lord has made... is what keeps repeating over and over again in my mind. In the last three months; I have grieved a really close friendship, made the decision to step down from leadership from younglife after 7.5 years and now been in two car accidents in 3 weeks- one of them injuring me.
This is the year the Lord has made.
Starting today June 6, 2011 I am starting a lifestyle change of taking care of myself. For years, I have made sure others were taken care of, were doing good, well fed, emotional healthy. I have used up a lot of energy helping others; and not that any of that is bad... but it gets tiring and wears people out. I'm worn out. Tired. And spiritually drained. The Lord tells me to come to him, all of us who are weary and heavy laden and He will give me rest. I have chosen that this year will be a time of getting filled, spending a lot of time with the Lord, saying no to a lot of things and enjoying life. With all of this, I am also choosing to have a lifestyle change in my health as well. I desire to be healthy, to not dislike what I see in the mirror; but if I don't do anything to get there... I just can't expect things to magically change. It will take time, hard work but this is what I want.
This is the year the Lord has made.
Rest. Renewal. Realization. Rejuvenation. Reflection. Relaxation. This year I will be taking time away from serving and will not be filling up my calendar. It may seem selfish to others, but I've given more than I have been filled with and can no longer do it. It's great to serve and do things for others and even for the Lord, but sometimes ministry and serving take our focus away from our Savior, our Redeemer, our King of Kings and Lord of Lords.
This the year the Lord has made.
I will walk in it, and once in a while world, I will include you from this blog and the occasional tweets. The Lord has brought my life to slow down a lot in the past few months... especially in the last three weeks. He has called me to take an R&R and I will obey.
