Never thought a puzzle was related to death

it's been a while.

last night work was a cluster.

let me give you a brief event of my night.

it's 2:14 we get a fight call. typical friday night call at SDSU.

the next transmission on my radio is one of my officers with

screaming and yelling in the background. He calls for medics to expedite

for a 20 year old subject who has been stabbed multiple times and is barely breathing.

I call medics, they are en route. Three other subjects have been stabbed, 1 with cuts to his face.

Medics arrive, more officers get there, SDPD responds, the helicopter responds. The suspects-still at large. Medical assistance is being given and look out my window, look at my camera screens and I see something i normally see in movies. multiple patrol cars blocking off the intersections and putting up tape. Then a dispatcher hears a crime code we don't always hear. The code for coroner's case. I was shocked, taken back and could hardly respond. My first critical incident. Tape is up. Murder scene on campus.

I was hardly able to respond to the officer as the acknowledgement of the subjects death.
Shocked and in disbelief. I breathe and think.

homicide.....

a murder?

a real death?
it's been a long time since someone was killed on campus. i was the radio dispatcher- i will never forget this. i've driven by the site now twice and it's still very errie. Just like the night i walked out of the front doors of my dept and saw... the fearing yellow tape, the homicide units en route, medics, engines, patrol cars all lined up and the body across the street laying there. Forensics and their team trying to piece this horriffic puzzle the next whole day. 48 hours. yes, just like the show.

ive been acting really weird since then. i havent slept much. hardly eaten anything and i am drained. it's been a weird week and i am tired.